What have I missed?

Well I didn't get a chance to write as soon as I wanted to, but now I do.
The half and half day with JJ and Blaise was filled growing experiences. I went up and down in the standing frame I believe a total of three times, each time I went up and then back down, I could feel improvement in my balance. It is almost like riding a bike that you haven't in years; the first time you get back on it feels a little scary and awkward, then by the third or fourth trip, it feels like you hadn't missed a day riding that bike. Dancing with JJ, my hands on his shoulders, pushing ever so slightly to follow his movements was amazing. I've learned through working with JJ and Mom that words play such a key part to my success. For instance the difference between releasing energy and relaxing. As well words play a key part for giving a strong visual image, and if I am able to picture what I want, it generally happens. Changes have happened for sure, I don't think JJ is ever concerned about my upper body anymore, because he now only puts his hands on my abdomen, and sometimes it is just one hand. I even felt more stable in the standing frame yesterday, I didn't have to have my hands on JJ's shoulders for support at all. My connection to my hips and hip flexors is growing tremendously, I can feel the connection from my hips down through my legs to my feet and all the way back up. The careful movements help to articulate me with all the areas of my legs, hips and lower back, which intern seems to be helping me be more stable on my own.
When Blaise came I knew I was in for a interesting afternoon, but the energy that traveled between us, and my ability to understand and feel the energy shifts in my body and his was better than I ever thought it would be. At one point in particular, Blaise asked me to run the accident through my head, several times, in different ways, while he sat just above my head with his hands huvering just above my neck. It was different and scary almost to picture the accident as a spectator, rather than the individual effected. After repeating it a few times and rotating my neck from the left to the right side as well, I could feel little touches of pain and heat in the form of a marble, slowly finding its was down through my broken neck area. It was a release of all the built up stress and pain.
Another few things that Blaise said to me stuck quite strongly. One being that when we were discussing what I want to create in the future as far as a career and body, he said along these lines "It's just like when the sperm hits the egg, in that instant the idea is put out to the world that a baby will be born, however it doesn't happen right away, we have to wait nine months or so for the idea to come true, all you have to do is send that idea(s) out to the universe and wait for the idea to come along in the right time." When we were talking about why I was not in University finding a career, Blaise said maybe the career that suits me hasn't been created yet, but when I get there it will be there waiting for me. I just have to remember to be patient, breathe and embrace the moments that I am in day to day, minute to minute and second to second.
Just when we were finishing up, I sat up on the edge of the table and worked with Blaises help to keep my back straight and shoulders back and down. It was hard at first but when Blaise put his index finger and thumb on my collar bone just like JJ had done before, I was able to sit straight, as straight as I had before. That was the only time I felt a little dizzy, I hadn't felt at all dizzy for a long time, which is good because that means the blood is flowing through my body so much better.
Everytime I go to answer a question when I am in the room I realized that if I was unsure I would look to Mom, but after Blaise and JJ looked at me, and sent the vibe of "It's your body", then I stopped looking at Mom for answers. The whole time I was working with Blaise I could feel JJ and Mom watching intermittently, then turning their minds on to something else. The room was so warm, and the sunshine emitting through the windows made the day all that much better.
Yesterday was really amazing too, with JJ and Mom's help I was able to get onto the spin cycle and rotate my legs through like on a bike. It felt really good, and my body felt quite balanced too. I always chuckle a little to myself, as when I am in awkward positions or have less support like with the bike, my balance seems perfect, but when I'm doing something simple like sitting at the edge of a table I am a little floppy. But it felt so good to be on that bike, sitting tall, feeling the difference between one leg being straight and the other bent, then switching to keep the pedals moving. My hips and lower back especially were defined.
Then we went onto the matt-table where we worked on articulating different muscle groups, I must say it is a great feeling when both I and JJ are surprised by a feeling or a movment in my body. Laying on my back with knees bent and left leg crossed over the right, my left foot was tapping, I didn't quite undertand the sensation, but visually seeing my foot tapping with consistency was beautiful. When we worked on bridging with my knees bent, and raising my stomach to the air, a few times my torso sort of locked, like it was in a corset. JJ and I both tilted our heads and said "hmm" what was that? It was good, we just hadn't ever discovered it before. My ability to release energy thorugh my left leg is getting better, it doesn't take me as long to quite the tapping or even ignore it. The excercise where I was using my core and triceps to go from laying down to sitting really helped me define the feeling of how my core and back are when I need to keep my body straight instead of floppy. Turning and leading with my core and hip instead of my shoulders felt good as well, I could truly feel a difference between using my shoulders and using my sides. Sitting up seems so much easier now, from the beginning of the workout to the end I can feel the difference in ease of sitting up.
Well that was a lot, and as more comes up I'll try to write it down, so I can continue to harness those moments in my mind, body and soul.