Knees & Stability

Yesterday was filled with new experiences and sensations. When Mom and I first got to the gym the lovely Lea and Romi were there. Lea is such a beautiful and happy person, her inner beauty just radiates. And Romi is such a great reminder for me. She is like a little monkey climbing all over the equipment, doing flips and playing with her balance. Seeing her helps me remember I did those things once and I can definitely do them again. JJ was running around trying to help a new client move in to a suite above the gym. I think he was thankful to sit, eat lunch and take a moment to breathe. I sat at the edge of the table waiting and talking with Mom and JJ for awhile, and it barely took any energy for me to maintain my balance; I was grounded.
When we started JJ was helping me bicycle my legs in the air at the edge of the matt, I had such a good sense of my hip joint and how it was rotating that I was able to help initiate the movement and rotation through. Together JJ and I maintained the movement for about 2 minutes. It always makes me happy when JJ becomes just as excited or happy about a new movement or sensation as I am. I just feel so good knowing that I'm giving back to him and not just taking for myself. There is a good circle of giving and receiving knowledge between us.
I had a few struggles when we did an excercise on my back, where JJ was trying to pull my arm in a certain direction and I had to resist. The part that was difficult was trying to combine the two ideas of holding my arm in place and trying to tuck my hips, lower back and shoulders into the ground for stability was hard. Focussing on two areas of my body seemed challeging for my brain. However now that I've taken the time to think about what my body needs to do, I think I'll be much more successful the next time.
From there we got onto the boulster and worked again on creating balanced movements while keeping my abdomen tucked in and back unarched. I felt so stable and JJ did too, because together we lifted beautifully so that I was only on my knees, no butt touching anything. We stayed together with just a little holding of the hips, for about a minute. It was so nice to have my back straight, with nothing touching my tail bone or butt. My hips and knees were so strong, the connection between my knees and the matt was incredible. When we went back down JJ and I looked at eachother in happiness. I don't think he believed it, he did his funny-nervous-excited giggle, and shook his head. He looked at Mom, who was crying in happiness and said "Did you see that?, that was awesome!". For two seconds we all took a breath to harness that moment in our memories.
From there I went onto my hands and knees for a bit, trying to bring my scapulas together, focussing on not using my shoulders, rotating my hips through, until my left arm tired and gave out on me. I went flat onto my stomach while JJ articulated my sensations all down through my middle back, down through my feet and back up. As awkward as it always is having someone touch your bum, tapping away at the muscles like they're piano keys does really help me to define the muscles around and in my lower back, bum and hips.
After doing that for awhile, I got back onto the boulster, except this time round I kept kicking myself in the bum with my right foot, launching me forward, I think JJ and I were both surprised we didn't crack skulls. When we tried to go back onto my knees I wasn't as stable the time before, which made things a little interesting. At one point I felt JJ push his head into my stomach to help support me, but because I am so tall it didn't quite work. So instead he put his entire face, straight on into my belly, at first I kinda felt funny, then I let it go, and seconds later I felt jiggling. JJ was laughing into my stomach, as we went back down to the boulster laughing, JJ said "I know I do weird things, but that was even weird for me", we all laughed. We joked later on with Joanne and JJ that they needed to create a new waiver for clients to sign. When at Path, you never know what's going to happen, but you can always go knowing it is going to be a good time.
After that we did some slower leg rotations while I was on my back, I didn't feel it as much as the first time, but as we are all coming to realize , you can't create the same beautiful moment twice. It will never be perfectly the same, no moment in time ever is. But as humans there is something in us that tries too, we all hope that we can recreate the beautiful time twice, but life just doesn't work that way. That's what makes us appreciate the good times ever more so; makes some memories stronger than others.
We went to the standing frame for awhile at the end, dancing again from side to side, while maintaining strength and stability throughout my body. JJ and Mom talked for a bit about how it seemed I had re-developed my side muscles in one night. I felt so stable, it still makes me laugh to see everyone below me though. At one point JJ went to shit me, and he held me by the sides, with his fingers pressing between a few of my ribs. I said "If you'd like me to puke, you're pushing in the right place". He changed his position and said "So you're saying you don't like being held there" I replied yes, and at first I felt a hint of anger in JJ, I don't know why, but it quickly faded and we kept dancing up until the end of the session.
Lea, Joanne and Mom were watching us, chatting and waiting to go wherever after we were done, the happiness and warmth in the room was great, it was a very amazing friday afternoon, I felt so lucky to have such fantastic people and energy around me.
Today is a day off, Mom and I get to see the wonderful K & K, I am excited. I just wanted to take a moment to say I am a very lucky lady to be surrounded by such amazing people in my life, I may not seem thankful all the time, but my mind, body and soul will be forever and always.