Last 2 Go-Arounds

The past two days have been filled with change, so much change I probably haven't had a moment to recognize it all.
After the workout on Sunday I at first termed it a warm-up, but when I reviewed how much my sensations and muscle mass had changed it didn't seem that way at all. From my trunk down to my feet, my ability to define in my mind the different strands of muscle had grown infinitly. When we were rotating my left leg around, to feel the rotation in my hip joint was very well defined. Even now as I sit I can feel those muscles, but now I feel my lower back and tailbone, and even hip bones. At first the awakening of muscles in my lower back was kind of painful, then it switched to the lower back pain I had before after riding, and now it isn't so bad, because I know I am working to re-build those muscles. But one of the movements that sticks in my mind was when I was on all fours, and I had to punch JJ's hand while supporting my body with the other hand and then switch. I was trying so hard not to sway my hips or drop my face in the matt, but I was able to do it a few times. Part of me is always disappointed when I can't do something so easy as that, but then I remind myself that I was able to do it before, it will come back in time. My triceps have far to go, I just have to remind myself to use them instead of my biceps. I am beginning to realize as I try to pull Sunday to the front of my mind that I should have written sooner. There are little moments at the gym where I wish I had a tape recorder in my mind, because they only happen for a second, and then I forget. Part of me thinks it is a good thing that I don't remember every snapshot of brilliance, or else I'd constantly be pulling files from my mind to try and create movement, which takes me away from being in the moment. Being there in the moment is so key to any kind of creativity, at least with working out, it's different for making art or writing a book though.
Anyways, I'll have to work on Sunday more, but yesterday stands out loud. When we first got there JJ and Jordon were having a beautiful quiet moment, I didn't want to interupt something so peaceful and unique, so I sat quietly and watched, appreciating such a lovely moment in time. Then slowly I saw Jordons' head turn and give the biggest grin in my direction. His personality instantly blooms when surrounded by ladies, the words he is working to create and the smile he shares is filled with glorius happiness. I know he is already kicking butt, but I think he will continue to for a very long time.
Then Dennis and two other people wandered in, I thought Dennis had come to work out with the two individuals help, but it was purely to chat with JJ, Trina, Mom and I. He introduced the couple as a team who wanted to help JJ, but Mom ended up helping, which didn't really surprize me, because the three of us are such a well oiled machine, why bother to mess with the mechanics. For the first while the gym was packed full of people, talking and observing. Diane came and got Jordon, which kind of sucked for me because I think he's such an awesome kid. And while JJ and I were working flat on the matt, Dennis talked to Mom and everyone else asking questions. I felt like glowing when people were surprized at the level of my injury and how well I was doing. People were watching me, and for the first time in a long time I wasn't annoyed or nervous, I felt good about how much work I was doing, even if I did have a belly, hair or bum hanging out. The boulster and sitting is coming along really well, I was able to get on my knees a few times, it took more work than the first time, I think because my awareness of how my body(specifically back) should be. I wanted so badly to be straight, and the over-focussing became over-kill, I think that was why it didn't work as well. I could still feel energy shoot through my knees like gravity grounding me.
Have to go, but I'll continue later, that isn't even half of yesterdays amazingness.