Its been awhile, yes I realize.
The mind has been busy, and while I know writing helps it just seemed like too much work.
I have a few things weighing down on me right now.
More or less thoughts, ideas that are stuck to my brain, like the meatloaf on the ceiling in The Big Bang Theory.(I am and will be forever addicted)
Numero Un: Why am I avoiding replying to email? I know I would feel less guilt if I just did it.
Numero du: Why are new friends more accepting than old ones? I am responsible for not maintaining all friendships, for not explaining myself to them. Some part of me is sad, but at the same time knows that this is true.
Numero trois: I realize I have grown and morphed into a different person because of what happened to me, but I cannot stop searching in the mirror for that other beautiful person. I know the new and old are both a part of me, but I miss the beautiful, confident, supportive, and elegant me. I see her every once and awhile in the mirror, and I hold on to those moments so tight.
Trust me that there are way more thoughts than these, but for now these are all the energy I have to write about.
Lots of Love, The Mel Mind
I love you! and I promise that I am accepting as ever. Sometimes people stare as we go down the hall, as people tend to do. But usually when we talk I feel as if it's just you and I, and the rest of the world and it's prying eyes disappear. You are still beautiful and elegant and supportive, my dear, perhaps just in different ways. You are also strong, and that is an admirable quality. Your strength amazes me, and I am so proud to be your friend. You are wonderful and don't ever forget it.
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